Hello! So I’m back today with a bit of a life update and please bare with me as this is sort of just me journaling but thought I would share it on here as maybe someone will relate to how I’ve been feeling lately.
Okay so the biggest sort of news is that I have moved into my new home! I have been here happily for nearly two weeks now and the first few days were difficult and overwhelming as everything is different and none of the routine is the same, and I was really missing my family but soon that feeling got quieter and it wasn’t as sad as it was.
I have found this experience to have been really beautiful and transformative for me, of course I have looked at this experience from a spiritual sense and sort observed myself from a third person perspective.
So before I moved I lived in a house of 5 people so there never really was any silence, just constant noise which I appreciated and thought I just might miss when I moved out. In spirituality I have learnt about energy, and how living with other people, your emotions are never your own because you are always taking on someone else’s energy and feelings, and I had no idea how true that really was!
Before I moved, I had interests but no drive to do anything with it, this blog is my true passion, talking about spirituality is my true passion, my witchcraft is my true passion but yet somehow none of it would actually get actioned, the last couple of months I would barely write one blog a week, I would study the craft instead of actually practicing it and then getting annoyed at myself when I would finally do a spell because I would struggle to know what I was doing.
Well since moving out I have had a few days of sadness and missing people and then I just had this moment of realisation, that I have got the time, the space and energy to do whatever I’m interested in. It has been an amazing couple of days, i have written four new blog posts that will come out at some point (including June New Moon & The Elements) I have been studying and practicing my craft, I have been mediating and manifesting, all this which was not happening a week ago, has slightly dumbfounded me as of to what was holding me back before? And the only answer i can come up with is that I was surrounded in other people’s energy that wasn’t serving or helping me at all.
This week I really have learnt a lot about myself that has really surprised me! I like quiet, I like meditating which is something i always struggled with because it hard to sit in your own thoughts, and something that may seem stupid but I actually have focus! For such a long time i have struggled to focus on one thing, and if I had too then it just felt like such a burden and would be constantly thinking about what I would rather be doing.
I couldn’t have imagined this week turning out any better and i think that’s probably because i just sort of surrendered to this process, I have never liked change, i don’t think there is many people who do, and i have spend the last few months feeling angry at this process and not being able to understand why and once I realised that it’s just something different and it’s change that I’m angry at, my mindset just sort of shifted and two days later I was completely moved in to my new home.
I don’t know if anyone reading this will resonate, but I really hope it does and maybe this is your call to help you stop procrastinating about doing something that may cause short-term anxiety and fear but will inevitably bring you joy and will be a positive life change.
Okay I think that’s all I have to say, I apologise this was a short blog but hope it brings you some empowerment or motivation in some way, this was just a sort of journal ramble for me today but thought I would share it because I don’t know I someone may need to read this right now and may help them in making that step towards accepting change and embracing it.
Thanks for reading