Life Changes

Hello! I apologise that it’s been such a long time but I’ve finally found time to write again. My life has been really busy as of late and some big things are happening for me which is exciting.

So I am moving into my first flat on my own! This has been a long time coming and I’m very excited about this yet overwhelmed, I’ve been mentally ready for a long time and knew this was coming eventually.

Coming into 2022 this was one of the first things I set my heart on and knew was going to happen. I’m sure many people can relate throughout this pandemic, that I have just felt very stagnant and frozen in my life for such a long time now and have just been hoping for something to change. Some may know my age but I am 20 years old and have been living with my family and this has been such a blessing throughout the years but getting older comes with a need for independence and a growing need to want to go and live my life. I’ve really struggled with being an “adult” yet not living like one and this has really been a constant mental battle for me the past year. Now I definitely didn’t imagine it coming this soon but I’ve really fought for this for such a long time and I just had a gut feeling that this would be the year it was going to happen.

Now this is a really bittersweet experience at the moment because as I am preparing to move and every day it’s getting closer and feels more real, I am going to miss my living with my family and I am going to really own my responsibility. The town where I currently live is where I found my sense of self and spirituality, I have grown so much throughout the years. I know this is a very normal healthy response to growing up and leaving home so I’m trying process each feeling as they appear and let it be.

So although it’s very emotional, I’m really excited! I have been collecting documents and signing letter all week, which has been making it really realistic. I don’t think I was prepared for the amount of work that goes into trying to get the flat or timeframes as this has been going so quickly that I had no time to even really process what’s going on. There is a lot of planning to do such as buying essentials, buying food, getting a fridge and oven or even flooring! There’s a lot more to this then I think I had realised but I’m handling it far better than I thought I would and just running right into the madness!

So I hope that you will want to come along with me on this journey to adulthood and this was a more personal blog but I just needed to have a bit of a ‘journaling’ session so I thought I would put it in a blog as it had been a while since I last posted. So I should be moving in a few weeks so I will let you know how this goes.

Lastly I would like to say a big thank you, this blog has been such a outlet for me and I have loved writing for all of you and sharing my journey with you. Emily’sPerspectives is really special to me and we are just coming up on 5 months since I started this blog and we have also just reached 500 people on this blog which is incredible! I’m so thankful and grateful that people are interested and I hope there will be many more blogs too come, talk to you soon!